The girl who used to teach and blog about it all the time?
Well, I’m not back, but at least I’m thinking about it.
During our Valentine’s weekend getaway, Jay and I had a conversation over dinner about my blog. He said I really needed to get back to doing it, to doing something I loved and was good at. He said if nothing else, I should write about how teachers can work with a student with diabetes and what it entails.
I will admit that I have been keeping a private blog – just for myself – about this journey. It’s not something I am up for sharing at this time.
I will tell you though, the past 6 weeks have been life changing and incredibly challenging.
Ian is adjusting to a new way of life and I’m doing everything I can to make it easier for him and for our family.
Diabetes is an unbelievably complicated and overwhelming disease that leaves you exhausted and puzzled. You think you’ve got things under control, you think you’ve found a rhythm, and then…you are hit with the reality that it’s never going to be that simple. There’s no foolproof way to manage diabetes.
If there was, I guess it would be what they call a CURE.
No day is the same and very few nights are restful.
Finally, in the past week my teaching has been improving and I feel better about school and my job. It is very hard for me to not give my all at my job because I always have.
But lately I’ve had to say NO to a lot of things and say THIS IS SO NOT A BIG DEAL to many others.
I have been doing what I can to get by in the classroom – as bad as that may sound. Thankfully, we are reading the novel, Stargirl, and I know it inside and out and have a great unit that I’ve developed over the last three years.
I’ve felt little moments of pride over things we’ve done in class and that sparkle that I used to feel on a daily basis…it’s here somewhere.
I will have to gather some thoughts about school and start posting on a semi-regular basis again.
I will leave you with a picture of Ian….who today came home from school with a horrible headache and blood sugars that are way too high. It stinks for him to have these random highs and lows. We dealt with scary lows all last week and now he’s higher than he’s been since we’ve been home.
And this pic is from Nerd Day last week. He’s a pretty handsome nerd, don’t you think?