It’s been a while….

Remember me?

The girl who used to teach and blog about it all the time?

Well, I’m not back, but at least I’m thinking about it.

During our Valentine’s weekend getaway, Jay and I had a conversation over dinner about my blog. He said I really needed to get back to doing it, to doing something I loved and was good at. He said if nothing else, I should write about how teachers can work with a student with diabetes and what it entails.

I will admit that I have been keeping a private blog – just for myself – about this journey. It’s not something I am up for sharing at this time.

I will tell you though, the past 6 weeks have been life changing and incredibly challenging.

Ian is adjusting to a new way of life and I’m doing everything I can to make it easier for him and for our family.

Diabetes is an unbelievably complicated and overwhelming disease that leaves you exhausted and puzzled. You think you’ve got things under control, you think you’ve found a rhythm, and then…you are hit with the reality that it’s never going to be that simple. There’s no foolproof way to manage diabetes.

If there was, I guess it would be what they call a CURE.

Maybe someday…..

No day is the same and very few nights are restful.

Finally, in the past week my teaching has been improving and I feel better about school and my job. It is very hard for me to not give my all at my job because I always have.

But lately I’ve had to say NO to a lot of things and say THIS IS SO NOT A BIG DEAL to many others.

I have been doing what I can to get by in the classroom – as bad as that may sound. Thankfully, we are reading the novel, Stargirl, and I know it inside and out and have a great unit that I’ve developed over the last three years.

I’ve felt little moments of pride over things we’ve done in class and that sparkle that I used to feel on a daily basis…it’s here somewhere.

I will have to gather some thoughts about school and start posting on a semi-regular basis again.

I will leave you with a picture of Ian….who today came home from school with a horrible headache and blood sugars that are way too high. It stinks for him to have these random highs and lows. We dealt with scary lows all last week and now he’s higher than he’s been since we’ve been home.

Last night we noticed that his bruises from his shots kind of made a face…so he did some artwork. I think it’s adorable and awesome and a great indicator of how he’s handling life right now.

And this pic is from Nerd Day last week. He’s a pretty handsome nerd, don’t you think?


17 responses

  1. Loved this post. Very real and wonderful. Praying for your family, and your sweet boy. Sounds like a great, tough, opitimistic kiddo. Amazes me how much we learn from them

    1. Thank you Mariabelle! Ian is pretty fabulous. 🙂 He drives me crazy sometimes but I try really hard to think what it would be like to be 9 years old and lose control of something so big. I have definitely had a lesson in patience and compassion.

  2. Glad to see you back, Melanie… and tackling this massive challenge in your life with such… aplomb.

    1. Thank you! And I learned a new word today!! 🙂

  3. Such a sweet boy you have. I love the pictures.

    It’s funny, I felt connected to you recently. One of my sisters handed me the book Stargirl and asked if I wanted it for my kids. It was right after you had mentioned it somewhere. I felt like the universe gave it to me. Can I read it to fifth graders or is there any content inappropriate for them? I started the first couple chapters on my own…

    Hugs across the internet!

    1. Ch.22 ends with a kiss! Haha. My kids were cracking up. I think it’s ok though. It takes place in a high school so some concepts might be foreign to them?? Read it for yourself for sure!

      1. Oh goodness. I’ll have to read it first, I suppose. They’re so funny– they watch all kinds of things on tv, but as soon as it’s in class they freak out 😉 We’ll see. I need a new end-of-the-day book for them… Glad you recommended it!

      2. Believe me…I get it. I said “asphalt” the other day and I thought they were gonna flip out!! Haha

      3. Lol. We live in a very similar world. Anytime I have to say cockpit or Uranus, (which is oddly more than you would think), I grimace.

      4. Lol!! That is hilarious! Thanks for the laugh!

    2. And p.s. Thank you for the hugs! I’m glad we could stay connected thru FB during my “leave of absence!”

      1. Agreed. Hope you’re doing better! Looks like you guys had fun this weekend 🙂

      2. It was a great weekend! 🙂

  4. Good to hear from you. You seem to handling your new journey well. In my thoughts.

    1. Thank you Cheryl! Just doing what I have to do!

  5. While much further along on my development curve towards Nerdom than Ian, I think he’s got real geek potential. While you do all that you can to help him fly, don’t forget to fly your own nerd colors high! Such strength, style and grace. Good to see you back, but hey, one step at a time — one hour at a time. Sending good vibes to your House from me and Mine. Dan

    1. Aw thanks Dan! I’ve missed you and, as always, I appreciate your support, friendship, and way with words!

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